วันที่17

ทำงานเสดพอตอนกลางคืนก้อออนเอ็ม เจอดี้(ญาติปอม)ก้อเลยคุยๆกาน ตอนแรกๆไม่รุว่าไมค์เราใช้ได้ ก้อเลยร้องเพลงให้ฟังซะหลายเพลงจากนั้นก้อปายนอน คุคุ

วันที่18

ทำงานทำงาน เปงเด็กเสริฟด้วย เหอๆ

วันที่19

อารมเสียนิดๆ แต่ก้อฮาตอนแกล้งะอ๊อฟ(คนที่ร้าน) 555 เด๋วจาเอา ที่ๆคุยกานมาให้ดู

วันที่20

เมื่อวานนี้ก้ออารมเสียอีกแหละ เพราะไม่ได้ทำงานก้อต้องจมปลักอยู่ที่ร้าน 15เมื่อไหร่เด๋วจาไปสมัครใบขับขี่ จาได้ขับรถกลับบ้านได้ คุคุ วันนี้อาตดทั้งๆที่นอนหลับ แปลกคน =_="

วันที่21 *วันนี้

ขณะนี้เวลา 5.47 ตอนเย็น เฮ้อ เด๋วก้อต้องไปทามงานอีกล่ะ ปิดเทอมทั้งทีทามมายต้องทำงานด้วยล่ะเนี่ยแง้ๆ เค้าอยากไปเที่ยวอ่า ที่เมืองไหนก้อได้แต่ไม่ใช่เมืองนี้อ่า แง้ๆๆๆๆ

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What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're the kind of chick that can hang out with your boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't care about presents or about going to fancy placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy being around your boyfriend.

By FERN

ตอนเช้าตื่นมาก้อ..... หนาวอ่ะ สงสัยวันนี้ต้องใส่ถุงเท้ากะรองเท้าแบบธรรมดาซะแล้ว (ปกติใส่รองเท้าๆที่เหมือนๆรองเท้าแตะไปรร.กัน) ถ้าจาให้สาดน้ำกานตอนนี้ก้อคงแข็งอ่ะ คุคุ แต่มีปีนึงที่เขาเล่นสาดน้ำกัน คุคุ มันเล่นสาดกันเปียกไปถึงในบ้าน หนาวๆแบบนี้ไม่อยากตื่นไปโรงเรียนเลย อยากนอนอยู่บนเตียงอุ่นๆ คุคุ แต่ถ้ามีปาร์ตี้วันสงการนต์ก้อดีจิ คุคุ

By FERN

" Fern what happen to your eyes?! " My friends asked me as she saw me " Are you cried?? " " Yes..." I replied. Then at lunch time they were asking me again " Why are u cried?? " " Yeah why?? " my another friend asked. Then I think I've to tell them about this." coz my aunty said she's gonna send me back to Thailand" but that isn't the reason whyI'm crying on last night " Really?? but why?? " " Umm.. because she said I'm too naugthy..." This conversation ended here.

I keep asking myself why can't I have a normal life like other kids, I been thinking about write an e-mail to my dad to say I have enough and I don't want to be here anymore but I'm telling myself " I can take it only 3 more years and I can fly back to Thailand. On this year I cried like every week coz I'm miss the old time when I have my Father my Mom and my sisters live in the same house at the weekend we went to shopping together 5 of us.. but now my Dad and Mom they don't live in the same house anymore it about 3 years ago that this's happened. Why?? At the same time my father want me to study in NZ coz my aunty is there too. In that time I was 10 years old. After I came to NZ my aunty waits for me at the airport it remind me when I was about 5 I like to stick with her all the time we went to shopping together we sleep together... I don't know why now I hate her maybe it because she's alway treat me like I'm still a child. She told me why are u changed so much not that Fern thatshe's knew but I had no idea why but I used to like her no I mean I love her sience she was gone to NZ when I was about 6 then I missed her so much sometime we talked to each other by phone but now I don't want to be withher anymore I hate to live in this house I hate the rules that children have to do whatever an adult said and they are not listening to your idea if they don't like it is it because of they are ADULT ??? I don't like anyone to tell me what to do if I already knew what to do. Sometime I hate myself why do I have to think like that why can't I just do the simple question to say " ka "?? Onec my aunty asked me "Do u miss your sister and your parent? " " Yes, I do" I replied then she asked me again " I don't believe you coz you never phone them or saying anything about them!" " But I do miss them!!" " Don't... I knew everything about you. You didn't miss them" She's know nothing about me I don't like to show my feeling I kept it inside my heart atleast I still can see them or talk to them anyway that's why I'm not cring when my Mom has to go back to Thailand after 2 weeks she's here with me at NZ. Years by years I begin to feel so lonely so I like to talk with my frinds by MSN or playing online games so I can have someone to talk with but my aunty doesn't like me to play to much computer I agree with that but does she know how lonely am I?? No... I know she's work hard but.. I've been thinking should I go back to Thailand study there?? Can I beat them?? Am I too dumb for them?? But still... I want to be here too I loved my can't here I love my friends here I'm confus now What am I doing in this earth?? just to be born and died?? sometime I wanted to died to but I can't because it's too painful but I'm not afraid of the dead I'm ready forit at anytime. I still got my dreams my Father my Mother and my Friends so I have to live on even I face the worse thing of my life I still have to live for them...

Sorry a I feel like I want to write this in English and it was so longggggg kuku = w = but no one about this feeling of mine...

By FERN